What a night. I couldnt sleep. I swear my entire house couldnt sleep. We all for some reason tossed and turned. That makes for a long tiresome tuesday. Luckily, 15 month olds nap, and Cancer Mommies nap. :) Perks.
Not sure whats up. My head has been hurting more the past couple days. Random sharp pains just popping up. I also still have my overall weakness. Its really hard to explain how I feel. Its like I cant trust my body to do what I want. My legs are weak, and feel like they can just give way all the time. My arms have no strength for even some heavy dishes. Going from a semi-healthy 28 yr old to this is hard. Its almost like overnight I was okay strength wise to this. (yes even over the past year I felt loads of energy until a few weeks ago). I know its finally all the radiation catching up. This is what it felt like around christmas for me, last radiation round. It should* pass. Likely in a few weeks some energy should return. Just getting that thru my brain is hard. I struggle having to depend on other people for everything. I want to help pull my weight. My husband does almost everything for Elliot and I these days. Its hard to go from 'normal' to having to have help putting clothes on. I guess its just part of it.
Tomorrow, we have a doctor check up for my new meds. This chemo-ish drug sucks. So far my newest side effect is blistering in the slightest sun. I have blisters on my neck and chest. I can literally feel the sun burning me in the car. Ive resulted to wearing hoodies, scarves etc to keep the sun off my skin. I had to wear the hood in the car this morning as the sunshine I could feel searing my skin. Its the oddest feeling, and of course the burns hurt like heck. Crazy to think a pill can cause that.
Thats all I have for now. More updates to come!
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